The Touching And Sometimes Crazy Things That All Moms Understand

Being a mom is an emotional roller coaster ride. Your kids can make you cry, laugh, get angry, and go crazy and most of the time those emotions are on loop all day long. It's exhausting. All moms have those moments where they have thought to themselves, "If anyone knew about this, they would think I was crazy." The truth is, all moms are.




I remember when my son was 4 months old. There he was, sitting in his bouncy seat, watching me decorate our Christmas tree and listening to Christmas music. All of a sudden, "Baby's First Christmas" started playing. I lost it right then and there. Blame it on the hormones, I guess, but knowing then that not only was my son my last baby, but he would never get another first Christmas. It was a moment I'll never forget as a mom. I'm glad that my husband, at the time, was 2 hours away at a convention, otherwise I would have never heard the end of it.

Being a mom has made me far more emotional about things in the news than ever. I find myself crying over the loss of children thousands of miles away, sometimes for days on end. A lot of them I still think about often and I'm still heartbroken.

There are the moments when one of my children has gotten in trouble for something and all they have to do is give a certain look or say something off the wall and it takes everything in me to hide the laugher brewing up because of it. One evening in particular, my husband was scolding our son for something as I sat on the couch burying my face into the cushions because the look my son was giving the hubby was hilarious. Hubby is a little more strong willed than I am and so watching him handle this with a straight face just made it even harder to keep from laughing.

Children really know how to push your buttons. No mom is immune to the constant "Mom! Mom! Mom! Mommy! Momma! Mom! Mother! Mom! Mom! Mommy! Mommmmmmyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!" all day long and when you finally answer them, they have nothing to say. I lost track of how many times I have told my children that I was going to change my name. That I am no longer "Mommy". That's obviously the craziness talking.

As a mother, and as much as I love my children, there are times when I find myself "hiding" by pretending to do something I'm actually not. I don't REALLY spend an hour using the bathroom. I sometimes just sit in there with the door locked, facebooking, because I really need a break. When hubby comes home from work, and dinner has been had and cleaned up, I like to lock myself in the bedroom on particularly rough days and cry. No, I don't actually like crying, but I do enjoy the moment when I get to release all the built up emotions that have accumulated through the day. And as a mother of an Autistic 7 year old and a very stubborn 2 1/2 year old, it tends to happen more often than I'd like to admit.

Still, even in those rough days, and those crazy moments, after I've had my break to laugh, cry, and get angry, I look at my children, watching them play or sometimes watching them soundly sleeping, and my heart flutters with all the love I carry for them.